The Stand

I have made a stand, and the results have favored me this time.

I "unenrolled" as an intern and applied for a job, naming an hourly wage I would be at peace with. Well, the budget can handle it, the boss would like it, and I can stay. This is good: I feel I have seen to a bit of justice in my life. So often I cling to things, hoping they'll get better, and allowing myself to be used. Well, I made a decision about the value of the experience, weighed the value against what I value, and realized I was unhappy, but more than unhappy. I was allowing myself to be used in ways that I don't have to be used, at least not for something I have no charitable feelings for. So, I was ready to walk away with practically nothing just for my principles, which is a wonderful feeling. Part of me wishes that I had to walk away, just to know I really, physically, could have.

But, no, I'm here, employed, and get to see the thing through, though differently than originally intended. And I feel like I did it with a certain amount of sanity and clear-sightedness. I didn't let emotions carry me away, I didn't whine, I didn't get mad. I didn't do anything in spite or anger, and I do wish the best to those who have abused me, whoever they ultimately are. In the large scheme of things, I stand for goodness and fairness, and I believe that the stand I took can have positive influence on how this business is run, one day in some way. Who knows what clockwork we set ticking with our actions.